CoraL oF ThE WorlD

S.O.S.

2011-05-05T02:23:00.001+08:00

I knew i am doing something breaking ur privacy
But i knew just wanna try to search something to prove me wrong
Unfortunately i found more thing that really surprise me and increase the number of my question to u

I am not so sure whether i should ask u or not
But for me, i get answer from u or not get any answer is the same,
I am no longer trust u
Honestly said, i am in a total regret , fully regret on tomorrow's trip
I wanna quit, i am scare,
I dunno who really u r
When i saw so many familiar thing that done by me but also done by other girl in ur pc,
My heart shivering, my hand shanking, my brain idioting

Am i one of ur victim?
Am i the victim that had fall into ur trap?
I am scare.... I need answer.....
The thing that can make me a bit calm is... He treat me nicely...

How to let i know that i knew?

2011-05-05T01:50:00.000+08:00

Now i realize, once injured, it will have a scar remain
It wont turn back time

Last time, i when i get angry, i will show to u tell u
And at the end, i will cool down and u will become the boss

I knew everytime u will gimme a reason that everything just i misunderstood u.
Most of the time, i felt guilty

Maybe this is because u really occupy my heart

But now, i just wanna calm down
I dun wan to listen to any lie from u
I am bored
I hate people lie to me
I believe u not only tell me lie once,perhaps more than i cant believe

I cant accept people lie to me

Dear, i really make me feel like u r stranger for me
I am scare of u now
Who u really u r?
What ur purpose on me？

The hardest thing is to tell u " i knew u lie to me....."

What should i do now?

Where am I?

2011-05-02T03:20:00.000+08:00

Quite a long time i disappear
Today i thought will be a best day for me
Will be a nice and warm sunday
I could woke up early in the morning to fetch my beloved cousin
I laugh when i heard his cute voice
My dear purposely make a visit to my house
I told him not necessary but he answered "what to do, i miss u"
So sweet. I really smile from heart
I thought to visit my relative today and introduce to them the investment scheme
What a good day, will i have enough time?
Hopefully today will be a long day

However, what u plan will never win a changes.

I am happy when i met my dear
I look deeply to him
He looks so sweet so caring
I suddenly felt he is my rite one
Not willing to say goodbye,so, follow him for a meal
Unexpectedly i saw a message from a girl
He always said there is someone(a kl girl) that like his best fren
I truly trust him at the begining
But from time to time i saw more messages
Although a simple message, but a simple message always have a bigger meaning
Even me and him also start from call and messages even today still almost never change
And today i saw a message newly from that lady, call him OWL
No wonder he want a DIY owl from me
This really make my feeling fade off...

Knew that i cant rely on anyone
I need money, i need money, and i truly need more money
I prefer earn myself
I plan to sell my DIY dolls
I start to work hard to sell unit trust
When i heard my relative interested, i really happy
I really put a big hope, my confidence boost up
I CAN DO IT!!
But in 2 hours time, my relative told me he wanna delay his unit trust plan
That time i told myself calm down be profesional, accept and...
Smile...smile... Act like usual
I dunno what actually rumour that being spreaded by someone,
I dun care
But i know i am ANGRY
I dun mind they dun wan but i mind if someone try to sabotage other not to buy from me
I really suspect someone talk something behind me

I am in my hometown, i cant cry even i wan
No place for me to cry, no time for me to cry
I only can cry when i be with water

I just realize i've change
Now i smile but i dun think it is sweet
I laugh but i dun think i laugh for something i feel funny
I laugh when i think i need to laugh
I praise but in my heart, i felt guilty
I say yes but my heart keep beg to no
I felt i am so fake
I hate myself
I hate myself

I wanna tell my father u r the one that i ever respect
But u spoil my dream, u spoil my life
When i think of this, i always think to die
I wanna go to eight floor........

I dun believe anyone
Anyone will harm me
I need to protect myself
I just trust myself
I just trust myself........

L

我是我自己我不是别人

2011-01-10T00:28:00.000+08:00

我已经有很久很久没来这里了
可是今天听你说了一句话真的真的让我冷了下来

"你为什么不像她那样对男友呢?"

那局话让我自己面对了镜子一段时间

我问问我自己我到底谁?

这样的我不是你要的吗?

我很差吗?
我真的很差吗?
我真的真的很差吗?
如果是的话那你就离开好吗?
my mom ever said this kind of words to me...
her words haunt me for years....until now....
i just wanna repeat my words...
if u wanna enter my world, please accept me,
if u unable to accept, please leave...
i am here not for you to critics....

people never compare you not meant you better than others but we just don't want to hurt you.

this song "可惜不是你" is for us?

2010-09-25T00:56:00.000+08:00

i just realize, now i treat my blog as my diary...
luckily..no one come to view...
most of people has forgotten this blog...
is good thing indeed..

i don't know what to write here, but...while listen to the song..
"可惜不是你"
makes me think, is this song is for either one of us?
last time i never worry...i never care, even i think of nothing is permanent ..
now...i can feel the pain in my heart if the day comes...
that night, u told me something happen to u..
at that moment, i really shock, is that real?
tears that fill up the spaces in my eyes make me realize how important u r to me...

thinking back to the moment we had together...
almost one year...
u become apart of my life...
u fill up almost all my night time before i sleep..
although we are far apart, but u always try to pull our relationship closer
every time i was unhappy, u'll comfort me,
every time i was angry, u'll let me complaint and even scold
every time i was bored, u'll accompany throughout the time
i don't realize since when u slowly walk into my world and even open the door to the prohibited room...

the time we being with each other really short,
that was the thing that i really regret of,
why not we spend more time together?
wait for the time to meet u dear....

i don't know what can i do to reduce your pain...
what can i do is...be with u...
appreciate all the time with u..
as i promise....i will not make u unhappy again...

no matter what, thanks for bringing happiness to my life,
thanks for let me know how to appreciate someone,
thanks for let me know what is the things that called love....
and..thanks for entering my world....

u just eveready..not yet energizer

2010-09-05T02:23:00.001+08:00

u always ask...did u treat me nicely?
yes...orally...u treat me super duper nice....
u always told me....u will do this to me u will do that to me, we will go here, we will go there...
but...will all that really happen??
we don't know.....
but so far, what i knew.....today u mention, tomorrow,u totally forget about it...
i always try to hint u...
don't u ever promise anything that u can never do....
pls don't ....i don't want to have a bad impression to u...
it is hard form me to pretend to be happy because u tell me something that purposely to make me happy.....just purposely make me happy....and wealways know..it will never happen

today i told u.....we had gap a long time we didn't met.
u say yes...u miss me, u want to see me, u need me,
but yet,
u never try to find a chance for us to met.
u started calculate to me...u said...
"don't worry...u will come back at the end of october,
"we will meet in KL in december,"
then u said again "u will come to hometown again in january.."
and..."u will back again in april..."
do u ever realize....u just wait me to go back.....
do u ever think of....
how if one day, i am not going back....how do me meet?
i really disappointed when i realize this....
i always thought u treat me importantly....
u said u miss me, u want to see me that is real...
but i am wrong..
that is not the thing that u want desperately.
because..i believe...human will put effort to get what they really want..
but what i can see from u...u....never....never.....

.

we still bonded...but....

2010-06-09T00:44:00.000+08:00

u ask me..."did i treat u badly?"
erm.....this is hard for me to answer....
u treat me not bad...
good.....but the 'good' is not yet achieved my requirement.
you realize that u r in the border of fail or pass...
yes....for me...we now....nothing more than just like a best friend...
we do talked on phone everyday....can say it is a routine of our life now....honestly i used to it.
but did we ever do something surprise or out of expectation to each other before???
do i ever did that?? yes or no...that depends on what you think..i don't know....you have the answer...
what do you ever did?? ok...for me...the only the real only one...you came to a far far place to pick me...as our first trip too....that the only things that make me change the perception to you...i really appreciate the moment...my sweetest memory with u....

my answer to u...
i told u..u just treat me so so.....how u treat me do change since the time we start...and the slight improvement do make me really take u importantly....but once u r sure i am in u...you like loosing the rope...

yes..i am greedy...i am selfish...i need surprise...i need something unexpected from u....but you like being real normal....10 days equal to one day....nothing different....i can felt bored...my feeling will fade off......
you answer me..."i am like that...i can never treat u better a day than a day... then finally....at the older day...when i can't treat u better... it will be worst....so..i will not treat u nicely at first...then i will slowly improve day by day...so u will appreciate me~~"
but dear...do u ever think that....we still new in our relationship...this is the chance we gotta gain merit from each other...we must do something that really meaningful.... unforgettable..sacrifice....it all about timing.....if the timing pass....no matter what u try to do later...it will be nothing more than useless...and meaningless....when time goes by...it will bring along our feeling away....we still not really strengthen our relationship....but seems...everything going to be worst......this is the third time i mention this seriously to u...everytime...end up with....u told me...u headache....u need to rest earlier......

i know it is hurt to tell u, i be with u this time but it doesn't mean that i will be with u in the forever to the future...because now i still evaluating u....u can do that to me as well....now i am sure...i just can be your girlfriend but being a part of your life in future...still impossible....you still not the one...

and this time u add up one more phrase...

"alright then...i am not your one......then u just go to find another guy better than me..."

something that someone never know

2010-06-08T19:29:00.000+08:00

sitting in my small room...
viewing boring facebook...
viewing lost contact friendsssss.... clicking from one picture to another...
but one picture stop me from clicking...

in my mind....make me think....
how good if i can be in the picture right now....
having my dinner at the beach...
be with the one that i really like to be with....
accompanied by the wind blow, song of wave, sound of sea bird...
perhaps, will be marvelous if i can see dolphin leap around the sea.....

all the time...i always hope there are someone that could really accompany me at those great time...
although i know is lame if i said i would love to be with some that i love, let my little hand be in his warm hand and finally be in his shoulder and what so over...
but honestly...i really wish to be that lame....but i think most of the woman outside there also wish too...but only they haven't really found the right person(the one beside us may not the right one...)
and i really wish to be with my one...Wish for my one really appear at the right time....

my dear...i never tell u what i prefer u to do to me....because i don't want to force yourself to be the one i want you to be...
i just want to be with the real you....however, if i found out....i am not suit with the real you....
i will keep going on my own way.....hope to bump into the one that i really hope to meet...
yea....it is just a wish....a wish for everyone too i guess...

软软笨笨的珊瑚

2010-05-26T22:49:00.000+08:00

也许心淡了吧。。。。。
再怎么好听的话也是税负不了。。。。
该痛的心也痛了该留泪的眼也湿了
伤到的心也留下疤痕了。。。
可是心跟主任一样重。。。。一点也动不了
也有可能笨蛋的心是石头做的吧。。。
这个笨蛋当了这么久的试用品也没发觉。。。
公司倒闭了。。
不要说试用品。。
现在连普通用品也不会在有了。。。

p/s 该次当找到适合自己的用品时，大量进货。。。试用品是不能用久的。

好想好想一个人去一个我好想去的地方。。。
听着红豆的歌。。。就好像我心中的歌。。。
还没好好地感受雪花绽放的气候
我们一起颤抖会更明白什么是温柔
还没跟你牵着手走过荒芜的沙丘
可能从此以后学会珍惜天长和地久

要学会放下哦珊瑚。。。

2010-05-25T22:48:00.004+08:00

对不起亲爱的
我知道我这样会很伤你。
你对我的好我是感觉得到的。
你对我的用心我也懂得
可是不知为什么
我还是觉得好像少了那么一点点的心

也许对你来说一些事是小事。
可是你却忘了很多时候，
往往一些小小的事对一个女生来说是很重要的。
她们会为那一些小小事哭而笑的
或许你认为那个女生根本不值得你去花一些些的时间吧。

我记得你跟我说过
你陈经被一个你很爱的女生深深的伤害了
最伤的是你根本没办法放下她
因为你太爱她了
当你学会放下了你很避忌同样的事在发生在你身上
你陈对我说你不再对任何一个人太好
因为你陈经被背叛的事你怕了
所以，你也不会对我太好
可是你却没想过
我是无辜的。

到了今天我才发现，
你不怎么把我放在心上
到了今天我才发现，
我所认识的你也是从你口中告诉我的你而不是我真真认识的你
到了今天我才发现。。。
在我心中所认识的你跟我真真认识的你是两个世界的你。
每当我跟你在一起的时候
让我觉得我好像跟了一个陌生人。。。
你跟我的之间好像格了一道墙。。。。。
怎么去靠近你也靠近不了。。。。

这么久以来很多人走过了我的世界
可是没一个人真真踏入我的世界。。。
现在我学会去接受一个人，你。
我打开了我的心门让你进来了。。
才发现。。。你不是属于我的世界。。
虽然我的心默默的在流泪
可是我还是要谢谢你
应为你
我懂得什么是幸福
懂得什么是珍惜
懂得什么是爱情

现在我也要懂得
怎么样拿了起来就要怎么样放得下去。。。。。

2010-04-27T02:13:00.000+08:00

i walk at the familiar place...
i did something that i cant do it alone last time...
felt glad coz still have chances to stand on the beloved land...
make me felt...i miss everyone, everything and everywhere that accompany me for the pass few years..

i really hope i could turn back time and be the pass few years Coolin..whatever happen, just stay cool but hot...nothing is a problem...never think twice...able to tried on so many things that came accidentally at the right timing and out of expectation...never think of risk....

now..becoming coral...soft...everything seems hard for me...everything seems a problem for me...
i need to consider so many time...makes me misses so many people, so many things and so many chances...

where is the easy-going coolin?? ON anytime everytime and with anyone? gone...
i love coral but i hate being soft coral...controlled by waves...affected by fishes..affected by so many thingss!
i need to change...i need to be special coral...soft but hard...and cool.....

i wish to...

2010-03-29T13:35:00.001+08:00

last time i used to count on how many time i should spare with my friend for yumcha
how much time i need to spend with my family
dream of some place i want to go
now....i must count on how many book i need to refer
how many staff i need to contact
how many lecturers i need to discuss with
think of the appropriate way to answer question from students
and and and need to laugh forcefully on lame jokes over some kiasu people

study week comes, salary comes, sure relax...
but why these few nights i can't really get into my sleep?
a lot of thingy floating in my mind...
family, friendship, loveship, my dream
all strangled in my mind

how long i didn't really spend time with my family??
since i enter UMS till now and future(unknown)
who is the one i really wish to be friend with all the time??
different place, different friends
penang-my childhood friends and some crazy friends, sabah-wushu friends and coursemate friends , now.......still looking still deciding...
loveship...one come one go....
most of them pass by and just able to look through the glass door
NO ENTRY board is there....bye bye
now..one stop to look. the one pass by so many times, finally he able to open the door cos the no entry board flown by wind of time
just sit in hall as guest
although anything can happen in hall
but still remain in hall for the mean time
due to the distance we had, he may heading to exit door
curious to know..where am i for him
Hall as well? maybe...

i dream to swim in the blue sea
i can see through the blue crystal clear sea
through the water, i could see my relative there
coral reef, fishy, turtle, dolphin or maybe whale~~
swim with them, play with them, and even ride on them..wow!!
i wish to see coral around me waving to me~~
i wish to see fishy swim around me to say "hi" to me
i wish to be in the circle of barracuda welcoming me in the sea
i wish to visit all the different color that have in the sea....
evening,
i hope i can sit on the beach and blow softly by the wind
and let the sunset watch me.. i think too much.
at night,
looking for little glowing plankton on the beach
blanketing by the stary stary on the sky
its is more comfortable if someone can lend me his shoulder counting on the starsss..

wake up~!! oh gosh~~!!
surrounded by SMART students, and peoples so called lecturer or appropriately..TEACHER!!

ARGH~~!!help me!!!!

Definition of teacher
- outdated, kiamsiap, narrow-minded, involve individual at any age that look like aunty and uncle that believed is "highly educated and rich of knowledge" about EVERYTHING JUST FROM BOOK.

Definition of SMART students
-everything same as teacher, just a level before teacher and always think they are clever than anyone.

similarity of smart students and teachers.
never hand on those thingssss they learn. They knew EVERYTHING JUST FROM BOOK.
live in small small world that they thought is a big big world because of THEY KNEW EVERYTHING

dream

2010-03-29T13:26:00.000+08:00

still bugging by the dream
although it just a dream
i did mind about it

you told don't think too much and don't worry
u had experienced something like that b4
u won't hurt others to experience it
do i need to relief to hear it?

u told me u going out, i won't ask where. i just say ok bye bye
but i really want to ask where did u go? with who?
but i didn't. i knew even i asked, whatever u tell me,
i can listen but to believe or not, still depends on myself.
honestly my little hearty told me..i cant take everything u said....
in a relationship when there are disbelieve appear, that means the end of a relationship is going to end.

dear myself...

2010-03-25T10:47:00.000+08:00

sitting in office.....typing some text....
is that what i really want?
no i hate this...
i'll holding microphone and standing in the center of attention of so many students...
when i speak, i will be the only one who speak and the rest listen, give response...
is that what i want??
maybe.....
my friend everyday keep telling me....
hey dear...you should know this is not the life you want.
you knew what suitable for you...
you still have time to change, you still young and still able to take the risk..
but the problem is...i am not the only on in this world i still have my family and i am the eldest.
for years my parents bare the responsibility to bring me up..its time for me to take care of them now...
maybe i am not fair to myself but if i think like that, do my parent treat themselves fairly?
no...they sacrifice a big part of their life for their children. they not fair to themselves as well. there is nothing so called fair in the world. fair or not fair is depends on our own perception.

breaking my boring life

2009-09-29T20:56:00.000+08:00

First time in penang i wake up so~~ early without felt missing my bed. Coz i am going to pantai kerachut!! although i live in penang more than 20 years, but i never heard of this beach b4....lame penangese... =.="
i heard pantai kerachut got turtle....me and my cousin so eager to meet with all those turtle~~ and the most special is i heard my friend said it is good idea to overnight there. coz we will see a bright sea. we can see the sea will glow in the dark...you know why?? hehehe plancton!!! i really really really wish really wish to watch the bright plancton in sea... sorry friends~~ that day becoz of me we cant overnight!!

wa....i never thought, we have to get permit to go to the beach.

gonna go through a short journey of the jungle...

finally...reach liau!! what a waste...i didn't bring along my swiming suit...cant swim!!

oh my god....really don't understand why they just remember to sleep once reach there~~~
why not try to walk around~~~ maybe...they need to rest their old bone..hahahaha
p/s ah miao...u still young...i not say u have old bone ya~~

whatever la...it was so wasteful if i didn't go around.....i went around myself...

this tree look nice....

until today i still guessing what means by this sign board ???

this was the only turtle i saw at pantai kerachut. its okla...at least i still saw turtle crossing

from left, david, hens, ah miao and me!!! lucky we still able to capture our group photo b4 going home.

another turtle i saw....... =.="

thanks david!!! ah miao, david and hens...next time we go together gether again ya~~~

20.9.2009 sunday

生命的每一個人

2009-09-29T20:40:00.000+08:00

一路上我遇到很多人

他們岑帶給我歡樂，哀愁和痛苦

讓我喜歡他們，討厭他們

甚至恨他們。

走了一段路后，我回頭看看他們時

卻發現他們不知何時，早已失去蹤影了

這事，心里其實很想對他們說：

謝謝你們岑陪我走過這段路

因為你們才有今天的我。

thanks my friendsssss

learn hard thing

2009-09-16T04:04:00.000+08:00

突然覺得我好厲害哦！！
我在一天里面在朋友的教導下學會了彈guitar
還是彈了生日歌哇哈哈哈
其實是想彈給一個朋友的他生日快到了
可是我要買的guitar還沒到啊！！
真么辦哎呀真么辦～～
剩下兩天！！
沒辦法跟別人借來學現希望guitar可以快快拿到。
現在practice了半天，手指很痛啊！！
可是還是不可放棄！！！
我一定要打動他的心～～

誰是好人？？

2009-09-15T15:57:00.000+08:00

真沒想到吃到那么大了
突然覺得自己其實很單純
在這幾個月里面工也做過了，家里也坐過了，
才發現其實人根本不簡單
跟我在讀書時見的完傳不一樣
真的嚇到我。。嚇到要跟人出門都想十下
現在我面對的人很多都是有備而來的
有一些帶著做sales，有一些是要幫忙的（這個ok)
最可怕的是一些ham cheong帶著利用的心。
很多時候我上當了我還不懂。。。
媽咪～你女兒我太善良了！！！

一個不是我的我

2009-09-13T03:03:00.000+08:00

糟了。。我越來越靠近老師的生活了
我岑經在form6時在好幾個朋友面前發誓過
“我什么都可以當只是不當老師”
liao lian咯。。想都想不到我竟然上大學讀老師！！！！
還讀了四年。 P/s 蓋次不要亂亂發誓
當老師喔～肯本不像我
學生不只是高過我還年輕過我。。不爽～～
這份工悶又悶。。。好土啊~~~
在我們影響里老師都是土土的
穿花花的衣服（batik), 顏色一點都不鮮艷的衣服，長長auntie的裙。。
p/s 我要穿褲可以嗎？OL一點哈哈哈
OMG!!!
更離譜的是很多女老師都是沒結婚的
到最后要相親。。 =.="
我以前聽到有人要相親我就一定笑道爆
說什么“這是什么時代了還要相親來找對象？？！！”
產了。。報應來了～～難道我真的真的有一天也要走相親這一條路嗎？？！！！！
啊～！！！！我不要～～！！！！！

老娘出馬了～～！！

2009-09-13T02:34:00.000+08:00

今天9月12日
又是無奈的一天
可是一場小小的意外令我精神了
我很厲害我敢敢走salah路
竟然跟一輛也是走salah路的motor撞
不是很嚴重啦～～可是就是不爽
又加上那輛不是我的車才糟糕！！
我一直聽人說如果accident
要談判就要大聲那才是贏家不管對還是錯
所以一下車我就噼里啪啦的罵
很多人看著。。。不管著罵
有一些人就很不錯還幫我說話
可是就有一些王八蛋uncle吃飽沒事做一直叫我算了
那些死Ah Pek那么kepo不然回家陪家人吧～～
坐在kopitiam擺lampa浪費生命。
kanasai的是黑人還好你跑得快不然老娘還想在罵呢！
可是我還是快快跑好了
如果那個人去拖水我只能拉水
到最后我還是選者cabut～～比較實在哇哈哈哈

Penang's 的生活

2009-09-11T01:49:00.000+08:00

天天這樣過日子真好
睡飽吃飽就看電視每天都無所事事
可是開始覺得自己太廢了
媽媽看我也看到悶了

還好今天有一個朋友來搭救我
聽了他自彈自唱了好多他自己創作的歌
好好聽哦！最喜歡一首叫“熊貓” 的歌。
嗯！我喜歡！一定要跟他拿來當ringtone 哈哈哈

現在空了下來才發現我朋友變少了
我的人也變超lazy了說道出門我就怕
哪像以前出門大王來的
差點roommates都不認識我了
天天都看不到我哈哈哈
最常聽到我說的是 “我回來了” 過5分鐘又說 “我出門了”
一天差不多聽了一兩次
今天的我看到太陽都怕只想呆在家
我會不會有自閉癥的哦哈哈哈糟糕咯

最近我很常給人在電話中放飛機
說什么我多一下打會給你或等下再聯絡
做不到就不要pandai pandai答應別人
真的kanasai白白等讓老娘癡癡地等。。癡癡地等～～～
誰叫那么善良的我那么容易相信任何人
小心我炸了他們的飛機啊～～

my little hearty says...

2009-09-11T01:27:00.000+08:00

每次我聽到diving這個字我的眼睛都會發亮。
說道低我還是很想diving.
可是我很久很久沒dive了～！
在這里（Penang)根本沒這個機會。
最多在沖涼房玩水玩到夠咯哈哈哈好白癡
我倒是發現到真真會玩這一類的活動的人沒幾個。。
說了很多理由。。說什么怕啦。。危險啦。。有鯊魚啦。。
媽的。。你以為你的肉很好吃啊？
誰可以跟我一起去dive呢？
可是有的時候想想不如一個人行動還是最只在的。
我還是帶著“一個人生活”這首歌走江湖吧哈哈哈

090909

2009-09-10T16:31:00.000+08:00

090909 is a good date for married lo~~~
So many couples seems wait for that day long long ago~~ hahahaha
I just went to one of the temple in BM, 68 couples married together~~!!
Then I heard other people said..other place, got more than 500 couples married lo~~!
that only in BM...how a bout other place?? I really curious to know la..how many couples married on 090909..
OMG!! ya la~~ married on that day they believe it was a good beginning of their married life..but ho...seems like those couples not becoming the focus of the light. because there are too many couples in one place...become ordinary...then have to siok sendiri lo....
Then I see they register one by one. the scene so familiar that we often see in school where little children wait to register to enter a school. Too simple and rush~~!!
I think....the next "good day" for married is 101010, 111111 and the last one 121212. hahaha I keep telling my cousin, " I wanna register on 111111 liau~~~" hahaha

beh song de day~~

2009-09-10T16:23:00.000+08:00

tulan~~!!! this few words only appear in my mind these few dayz...
why?? what happen? everything seems wrong to me~~!
where was the super kind coral~~~??
lucky yesterday..i be a little patience...2 idiot salesgirl keep dragging me and my cousin to promote about their "super bra and underwear"
they said can help us slim wo~~~ actually i wanna ask de...if like that, Mayfair, london, marie france and dr.nano can bankrupt liau la...
then ho...i really wanna said " why u still looks so fat? where is ur waist??" if i say ha....she sure mad lo..hahaha
but since their counter just next to my counter, i "REN"!!!

I miss my previous life….

2009-08-24T02:36:00.000+08:00

Few months after leaving Sabah, I review my final semester picture again. I really miss my life there. For me.. I really enjoy my life there. I had what I really want to experience in my life. I get to know many friends from varies places. I get to many places that give me different kind of experience and different kind of feeling. I knew… now.. it is impossible for me to get back to that kind of life. Starting from the day I leaving UMS, my life has turn to normal and meaningless. I cant imagine I will become a teacher one day. However, I won’t forget what I want. I’ll keep enrich my life experience by going to more more more and more places~~ wahahaha~~~ I’ll make it!!!!!

My aim of life.

1. Swim with whale. (MI)

2. Be friend with dolphin. (MB)

3. Dive with turtle.(SC)

4. Never lazy to be active!!! Stay activated. (NP)

my new DIY-ing

2009-06-07T03:53:00.000+08:00

yea~~~!! i'm gonna going to wear like this so soon IF i can pass my final semester exam well~~!! cant wait for it!!! now...me sipeh free at home...so i make all this thing la...cute or not?? hehehe yea some of them doesn't have their certificate on hand because i still not yet decide who gonna be the owner for the cute doll. i will sew name on the certificate la~~ hmm~~~ i pandai rite?? hahahahaha

i wait for the day~~ october~~~~ coming soon!!!

my early work....a bit smaller than the latest one...hehehe but it still looks cute~~~~

these dolls are all without certificate one~~~wait someone order from me~~~ hehehehe in case some one interested with it.

one big family~~~~~

latest three~~~i like three of these~~ they have the biggest and cutest head~~ hehehe

hohoho...so satisfy with my work~~individual picture~ they may not be with me forever. one day will belong to others liau~~~ cos i gonna sell it~~~ hehehe

these one....saja make it.....make for nothing. small and hard to do~~~~just for display....

hmm.... actually i wish to keep this couple as my own collection one...i like the sewing on the couple's shirt but not as cute as i wan~~~

couple shirt~~~~~

from this angle, its looks so sweet~~~~hehehehe these doll can hug each other one o~~~~

zooming in~~~~

final year trip in Sabah

2009-05-24T14:07:00.000+08:00

In a blink of an eye, 4 years had passed. Unbelievable, I had experience on so many outrageous activities that might not be tried by most peoples. Yup! It is my pleasure to have the opportunities to expose to those activities that might not be found in most places. I am so proud to say that I felt so lucky to be in Sabah in the past 4 years and I will still visiting Sabah whenever I am available. I still miss Sabah~~~!!! It is a real nice place. For those who doesn’t have any common knowledge about Sabah would said, "going to Sabah means going to jungle, and peoples live on tree”. Oh ….so naïve. Hey…please la…no more people live on tree ok….jungle sure still have la..but Sabah especially Kota Kinabalu are as developed as the others city in Malaysia. All the time in Sabah, especially final semester, was my most extreme semester for me. I still remember I have lots of assignment to do and continue to sit for my final exam but I still able to spare my study week time to get my diving license that I eager to get since 3 years ago. Finally I went to dive. Even my wish is going to Pulau Sipadan to dive, but no choice la..Not yet found a diving buddy, time matter and money matter. Diving is really fun. Can see coral and fishes in near distance, if possible, you may softly touch it too. Felt the buoyancy in the water was so relaxing. Forgetting the tense of life.

never forget to posing even in the water

wa~~~sea cucumber~~~

After final exam, my brother came to Sabah. His first time visit to Sabah. Of course, I once again be tour guide. Start with crocodile farm. There will be crocodile show, traditional dance show and there will have life crocodile and snake available for you to touch.

i think i have capture photo with this crocodile few times before

Next destination, I take a chance to bring my brother to some of the island in Tunku Abdul Rahman Park. Hehehe……….this time, I choose Pulau Manukan and Pulau Mamutik. Once reach the jetty of the island, first thing what we can see in the water was a group of fishes. Uncountable. I just went there to snorkeling. First time going to Pulau Mamutik to snorkel, I just realize that the coral in that island really grow too near to shore. I can see coral even the water just at my waist level (I am not tall only ba..). Even I went for snorkeling,, I can see that the coral just one meter away from me but some area, I am so worry my stomach might crash the coral. Honestly, not too many species of coral in Pulau Mamutik, but I will still get a nice view under the water of Pulau Mamutik.

u pandai u count all those fishes

zoom in the fishes zoom~~zoom~~zoom~~~

these were the most scariest animal of the sea especially when they in a big big group

view underwater of Pulau Mamutik

er....this one.....i felt it looks interesting hahahahha

fish feeding~~~~~common fishy~~

touching the coral~~

Non-stop trip really get my brother sick when we continue our trip to Tip of Borneo in Kudat. we also visiting the ostrich farm near Kota Belud (actually quite far from KB). Finally I have chance to step to the tip hahahaha. Nice place…. all the stone there, sculptured by the waves and wind. So unique.

in ostrich farm...can have a ride on ostrich one~~~

at the Tip Of Borneo~~

wall climbing at The Tip of Borneo~~ hahaha

Well, I felt guilty for making my brother sick because of a super packed schedule of his trip to Sabah, I emptied 2 days for him to have enough rest. What a good sister I am hahaha furthermore I have others thing to do. Some more, I wait for my friends to comes to Sabah before going to the next activity.

Finally, the day had come. Time for RAFTING!!! Hahaha most extreme. Our group-13 peoples include me have to sign an agreement paper that we will responsible for any loses of material or life during the activity. Wa…seems like we playing with our life. We travel from Kota Kinabalu to Tenom by bus for three hours. Then the surprise thing is we have to travel from Tenom to the starting by using trolley on the train railway. And the trolley was moved by using human energy that was just using a stick to push (we all travel on the trolley for more than 45 minutes). Rafting…I don’t know how to describe..just see the photo and try to feel it hahahaha

P/S for more information, one side of my sandal was tearing off when I fall into the river. I estimate I was under the water for 10 second, can't breath and keep roll and roll by the waves. No warning for you when you will fall into water. Hahahaha shock!

SEE~~~!!! we ride on this thing to the starting point!

"what ever situation, always look to the right and smile~~~"(this is what the guide always remind us)

always sensitive to the camera~~ hahaha

our boat...doing flying fish...

end up with capside-ing....see~~ 5 boat, only 4 are normal....my boat always terbalik one...haiz...i also don't know where am i...

Saturday~~ a day before going to Mount Kinabalu! I pleased my friend to bring me to see turtle. Thanks to him to spare his time to bring there~~ “Thanks KISH~~ finally first time in my life I could see turtle~~hahaha”

sea snake.....i think not poisonous gua~~

wah~~~finally i see turtle~~first time in my life~~~this turtle keep slap my hand using its 'fin'

Last trip, going to mount climbing. So sad. It is bad weather. First day just drizzle. But second day I thought, we all can see sun rise at the peak but still raining and the wind…so strong~~even I am a heavy group human, I still felt I would be blown off by the wind hahahaha. All the way to the peak, what in my mind was just want to give up. I felt I am so tired, lost energy and felt so old!! But congratulation, even at the age 24, I still reach the peak and still have chance to capture photo with my brother and other friends on the mountain hahahahaha. no one can stay on the peak longer because drizzle+strong wind= damn cold. Our hand gloves were 1 kg weight, -filled of water…hahaha make all of us just shivering. Our raincoat never leaves our body. Even some of my group member gotta use rubbish bag to replace raincoat since his raincoat totally tear off. Reminder for all-never go for mount climbing when raining season. Super suffer.

climb on rainy day was so not easy.......

but the waterfall still beautiful....

never forget to stop for awhile at this place.....worth to stop to take some picture....

u observe the tree....unique....

u can see this scenery before u reach the peak

no matter how hard it is...me and my brother able to reach the peak!!! yeah!!!!

No Oral SEx please...

2009-05-06T03:38:00.000+08:00

Wa..another story about pennis….my previous story was an old Singaporean man died because of some problem occur with his pennis while masturbation. This time….another Singaporean man…LOSES his penis while his gf do some oral sex on to him.

Tuesday May 5, 2009

Secretary accidentally bites off boss’ penis

This is the real big title that catches my attention today. Omg…Guyz…can u imagine…loses your best “buddy”??? Argh!! Can connected back or not?? If not, means can’t have sex for while life?? How to pee? Stand or squat? Can’t masturbate forever? Erm……all the questions...Still no answer. After read the news…u guys sure will love your “buddy” more than before. NO ORAL SEX.

final conclusion, i have made a right decision

2009-05-04T12:59:00.000+08:00

haiz…feel like i am just an empty bottle that float on the sea and dunno where will be the last destination. When review back to what i have done before, wa lau.. so many, but now seems like nothing at all. Since the time i choose to be oversea( but still in Malaysia-sabah la…), i knew i have to done something to make my life different. But the first year to be at Sabah, damm boring. Regret to be at Sabah. Until second year, i tried to exposed to something extreme..mount hiking, jungle tracking, rafting and sea exploring. Wahaha..All this have made the different perception of myself towards Sabah. Start from the time i said “i love Sabah!!!”. Also in the second year, i have made a decision that have totally change my Uni life. That happen when i saw a simple, unattractive and quite hidden notices that introduce about wushu club in UMS and it will have meeting soon. Wow..so excited so happy and felt so touching. “finally i could involve with something i really wanted in my life~~yeah yeah~~”. Well..I decide to join the wushu meeting. OK, first meeting just 5 persons attend and in just a short time(not even 1 hour) the post vice president belong to me. funny?? alright… that time, no coach, no members, no status(not even a recognized club in UMS), and not well organized ‘club’. Well…too late to say no. Me and other AJK gotta start from the begining, apply to form a club (means b4 that ‘wushu club’ was underground club??), find coach ( arrenged by god maybe, i found Mr L) , the most difficult part, finding members. During my time, 20 members were the maximum members. After more than one Sem i ‘retired’. However, congratulate to the second batch vice president and the third batch president. Well done to them. During their time, Wushu have the best achievement-Golden time. Even i am always member in the club. Even i have my sweetest memory with my wushu friends (we, the 6persons have the craziest moment together). But i think now is my time to say bye bye to the club. Everything change by time.

IF can turn back time, what will happen today, if i didn’t decide to go to the “wushu Club” meeting at the first time?? will the wushu club exist like today’s wushu club? importantly will i have the chance to know all my wushu friend?

That time my decision either “YES” or “NO” maybe will bring a big varies in my Uni life. But i just want to say i was lucky to have the right decision.

DIY-ing

2009-03-28T15:09:00.000+08:00

HUH MADE BY YOU?? UNBELIEVEABLE~!! !

I don’t know why people keep saying it is unbelievable when saying this when I told them some of my DIY products. hahaha pls la…even I am not kinda girlish but I know how to use needle and thread one ok~~~ include my imagination and creativity really make my product great great great ar~~~ wahahaha

Now most of my friends got a DIY thing made by me. Make me so proud when I see them hang it on pendrive la, pencil case la, as well as key chain la….. wa…make my nose grow higher liau!!

all these are handmade de o~~~~ limited edition.

Muahahaha all of these made by me~~ hahahaha it look simple and easy make but when people knew it is made by me, they hard to trust it. Why?? why??

Instrument used for DIY-ing

this is the first card i made hahaha

the one and only one......hard to do....i learn from book one....

this one also learn from book one......

this is the penguin i like the most super round and cute cute one!!!

this is use to hug thing one. even handphone

hang anywhere also can o~~~

also can hug u o~~~~~come come baby~~~

ladies one.....giv u a hug!!!

this is to keep handphone...limited edition

handphone "house"....

this 7-chai just for pretty suan~~~ she is nan-quan princess....

this is the bag i made from clothes....i sacrify two shirt and one jeans for this bag lo.....

I like to do last minute work. My final year project also make by sewing tools. That product is gonna use as teaching aid. Even I knew it was time consuming, but I still keep till last minute to do. At last, my whole family has to help me sew my product. It is so funny to see my brother holding a needle too. Hahahaha

my project's product....

this one is one of the meiosis phase o~~~

with my help of my family, finally i done all the eight pieces of meiosis proses.....

as trial, i sew on my T-shirt first......can wear to the street liau..hahahha

Another last minute work… during my practical, becoming a teacher for three months and have 55 students. That time I think it is good to leave something as a memory for those students before I leave the school. So, I made a crazy decision. I want to make 55 little cars with their name on it. Wow…one week left but I not even sew all the name on the clothes. OMG…I have to burn two night of midnight oil to finish it. The last day in school, I bring my panda bear’s eyes to farewell with those students. However, last minutes work always gimme a very impressive work and make me wanna praise myself…. “Coral you are the BEST!!!” hahahahaha

this one....really my biggest effort i ever make.......worth worth~~ hope my students like it o~~

Release Tadpole

2009-03-26T11:22:00.000+08:00

Old man’s bottle mishap leads to his death

77-year-old man used the bottle to masturbate penis became stuck in a soft drink bottle

His misadventure later led to other medical complications causing his death.

if interested, can go to this link for full article.

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/3/26/nation/3556615&sec=nation

Hm….i doesn’t know how to say wo… it’s ok for masturbate, but what I wana said is if wanna masturbate, it is good to use the right way. Oh no…I am wonder this uncle use what kind of bottle wo… whisky or jam bottle?? Hm….big different actually. Now I only realize the passion of men is so strong and surprisingly even at the age 70++ also not excluded.

Aiyo... masturbate ma…can use many way de ma~~ use hand la..or sex doll la.. or use watermelon(can try) wahahaha. Or via best way, PAY MONEY for little mui mui la (NOT RAPE) this is in the case you don’t have wife or girlfriend la...

Yea… masturbation is one of the ways to release your accumulation of sperm… but actually you never have to worry the bulk of sperm will burst off your testis….this is because your sperm will be release in natural way sometimes you are in sleep.

don't let this happen..hahahahaha

Your flag pole will rise at morning and your little daughter and little daughter will come out to say hello to you one… if you don’t want waste the sources of the protein, go to sperm bank and donate it!! Better..you will produce your generation to worldwide. hahahaha

Farmssssss in Sabah.....

2009-03-26T03:41:00.000+08:00

Well....coming to Sabah doesn't mean you are entering forest or jumping from a tree to a tree. There are many farmssss for you to visit for example like cow farm, ostrich farm, bee farm, crocodile farm as well as tea farm. I have visit most of the farms.

All the farmssssssssssssssssss

Here, I really wanna intro for everyone the farm that you can’t found in peninsular that is cow farm that in Kundasang. Yea…cow farm, pig farm and chicken farm are too normal in Peninsular but do you ever see a white+black cow?? As u seen in television, New Zealand cow?? Yea...You can found it in Sabah. The farm near to Mount Kinabalu makes the whole environment so nice.

follow me~~~ going to cow farm~!

I risky my like to take this photo as prove of the black and white cow as you see in Fernleaf advertisement.notice that, those cow also want their face in this photo..hahaha

Along the way of Kundasang, you can drop by to visit bee farm. In bee farm, you can see how the bee built their nest. One more interesting thing, you can try to eat the fresh honey from the nest. The people in charge will cut for you. Don’t worry you won’t be sting by the bee. Smoke will be spread to everywhere to inactivate those bees. But be careful~~ the honey in the nest might contain larvae. Don’t just eat the whole nest happily together with the larvae. Then sure congratulation to you hahahaha.

Erm...i cant imagine how if i put mu hand inside...sure become pig hand...

The white white thing in the hole of the nest is larvae.....can eat one....got many protein one. If you dare.

These are the fresh honey that just cut from the nest. Free to try to put into mouth and chew.

Oo....pity.....leave a big hole.........sorry bee bee.....spoil your house.

Erm….visiting the farm of the king of the river. Mr. Crocodile. Wa….looks scary. There are many species of crocodile you will found there. Some genetic inheritance crocodile also being kept in the crocodile farm where you can see crocodile without tail too. Besides, ostrich sister and snake brother will also wait for you in the crocodile farm.

this Mr Crocodile super big lo.....just for display in the pond.

hah~~ this one....little buddy....can touch one!

tail gone!!!!!

these two cute little crocodile....can i take home?? hahahahaha

hehehe..i am the queen of the snake!!! well..being my necklace..hahaha nice??

feeding animal...not using myself to feed animal..hahaha

In ostrich farm, you are allowed to sit on the ostrich and be aware of being “tiong” or bite by ostrich. Hahahaha no kidding. Of course you can also ride the ostrich if you not scare your little ass will meet the floor. Hahaha if you are lucky and you are cruel enough, you can order to eat ostrich egg that will be serve in the restaurant in the ostrich farm. Never think to finish the whole egg alone.

Don't too near...they might "tiong" and bite lo..

Just for display...out of farm.....sometimes in sabah, you can found some familiar things.

This is the long nose monkey or so called proboscis monkey that only can see in Sabah.

Dance Dance Revolution

2009-03-26T02:59:00.000+08:00

My university life….wa….full of sweet sweet memories lo…when I was young, I always envy people and admire people who dare to stand on the stage for performance. Even until my age 20 I still watch my friends dancing on the stage~~~Hehehe but nobody knows….when the time has come, the stage will belong to me~~ wahahaha

At my age 21!!! Finally!! I learn my first dance with a group of friends a traditional dance using “san zhi”(fan).. yea….of course..i am so care about the performance…I am very nervous. hehehehe first time…I dance in front of so many people~~~

Performance during 2006 mooncake festival

sometimes being "sampat" also ok de hahahha

Then comes to year 2007, before Chinese New Year, again, I took part in Pesta Angpau in UMS. This time very “geng” I practice for two dances in a time. One is “qi zhi wu”(chess dance) and one more was using “hua qiu”( handmade flower). Hahahaha Still traditional dances. I couldn’t forget the big group of friendsss that practice together…so crazy….really enjoying the practice. Even we had a lot of assignments and lab reports but we still manage to get extra time for practice. Wow… gets to experiencing to sleep in Canselor Hall all together for a night before PAP. It is just one in a whole life experience.

pratctice ar......performance 3 minutes on stage , practice 3 months downstage.

Tired until sleep in Canselor Hall. its ok...have carpet.

Yeah~~~common we r the chess people. red chess and black chess gonna fight on stage.

Mu Dan Jiang.....using "nan quan mama" song

After PAP, I found out year 2007 really my year of performance, while waiting for mooncake festival for coming, we started to practice new dance, this time, I had a chance to perform a hip hop dance and 2 traditional dance using “ shan zhi” as well. Hm…I couldn’t forget that time, our dancing group was so famous, and our group was invited to so many places to dance…hahahaha wa….seems any events in Kota Kinabalu also seen our faces. That time, I and my group have to rush from one place to another to dance. The funny scene was we had to wear a traditional custom to dance a hip hop dance during rehearsal. Hard to accept and hard to imagine too. hahaha. This time was a real happy, enjoy and hard time. Happy and enjoy no need to explain, hard time is me and two others dance members gotta pass up assignments (more than 10 pages each). We just rush it after all performance and we burn midnight oil for several nights. Unforgettable.

The L group. grouped by L peoplessss with some L looksss...

Another "shan zhiwu" with big butterfly on our head.

Hehehe another "shan zhi wu" also have big big butterfly on our head. no choice...we looks like flower.

Although people will see a dancing people as soft and girlish, but but but i am not. I also took part in wushu. That time if not mistaken is in year 2008, in International Students Day, I perform a real short performance of “jian”(sword). Hehehehe

We all very “smart” right? Hehehe

After that, I stop for a long time, for training in teaching. my last year in university, I still able to participate actively in university activity. Again, I took part in Pesta Angpau 2009. This time was really great. I dance two traditional dance and practice for wushu that playing “jian” (sword) just for PAP. The thing really hard was the rehearsal time. I not even have time to breath; I had to continue from wushu, and then continued to rehearse two others traditional dance. Wow….busy busy!! Luckily during the real performance, the dance and wushu performance goes smoothly. hehehe so happy at least we have some contribution to the big Chinese events before we all these old people gonna graduate hahaha.

"Tao" (or so called ESCAPE) hahaha

Water Lady...a bit popular because we r too pretty and watery~~~ hahahahaha other name..juicy girl...soku~~oh~~?

P/s no photo for wushu group…. you have to understand la…not enough time to capture picture..wahahaha

I really happy and enjoy the fun fun time with all the dancers that from variety of courses and years. Amazingly, majority of the dancers are from education course. Just to tell everyone..Teacher not only know to teach subject content but also know how to dance and be artistic one!! hahaha Yea…that what people said…enjoy your university life. Now I understand. Enjoy everything. hahahaha

i love Mount Kinabalu

2009-03-21T22:40:00.000+08:00

Em…whenever tourists come to Sabah, the first choice of place appears in their mind is climbing Mount Kinabalu. Obviously, it is the highest mount in Malaysia. Well, in just 2 years time, the cost of climbing Mount Kinabalu has increased several times and now is 3 times much more expansive than the previous price. However, there are still many people willing to pay for the price just to climb the mountain. They are not dummy actually, for those who ever climbed to the peak of the mount, they knew it is worth than anything.

Of course I am not missing a chance to go~! 2 year ago, I went there with a group of friends. Wow… on the first day, we were so eager to speed up to the peak, haha impossible…. I carried a 6 kg backpack with me. For me that weight quite burden for me. To Gunting Langanan (2km before peak), we have to track for about 8 km. We start from Mesilau at 8am. That times all of us so spiritful. With the aid of a wood that we bought from the guide, it makes our journey smoother.

start our journey~~~ accept the challenge!!!

hehehe walk in the jungle make me feel i am just a small small creature.

Mesilau pathway is the best way for climbers to go up if comparing to Timpohan. It has fewer stairs and the scenery so wow….indescribable! Seems like a way to heaven…hahaha. Along the way, my group always stop for rest eat eat and joking the most important was not forget to capture photo~~~! Hehehe now all the photo have becoming my sweetest and unforgettable memory. No matter how tired we were, we just look at the peak not far away…yea~~~ that is the motivation that keep push us up!!

road to heaven...wonder where we will reach after we enter the cloud.

Gunting Langanan is a point where all the climbers will stay for few hours before going to the peak. Hm…if not mistaken, my group reach at 4pm… wah lau…that time I feel like I am standing on the cloud. I saw a few local people at Gunting Langanan playing sepak takraw there. Finally, we can rest. Then for sure..We all..sleep sleep sleep. I can’t forget what the feel being a preserve duck….I not allow the real cold water to pour on my body. even my contact lens solution also as cold as ice water, I have to sit on it to brood it and wait it warm. Hahaha when I think of it.. make me feel like I am a mommy chicken is brooding eggs hahaha. Environment at 1am was so cold. All of us wear full set of equipment to climb to the peak. We put on as thick clothes as we brought. We really look like penguin. Hahahaha

so far away~~~~ but we still gonna reach there!

one day i will dance there hahahahaha

When I tells my story about Mount Kinabalu, I will never miss to describe how amazing and how beautiful the sky that full of starssssssss. I am so lucky that time few meteors have passed above my head. Wa~~ I can make so many wishes that time…hahaha. Always remember..must reach the peak!!! 50 meters before reaching the peak, I can feel the freeze..fuiyoh~~ cold cold. Finally~~!! Reach the LOW PEAK of mount Kinabalu~~!! Hehehhe sat on one of the rock wait for sunrise. Can’t forget the moment.

never give up!!!

prettiest sunrise lo~~~!

Yeah~~yeah~~~!! We have reach the peak~~wahahahaha

we all goes down happily~~~~ la~la~la~la~

Along timpohon, we saw many local people include men and womens carried heavy things such as gas barrel, stone, food and many others. We surprise they just wear sandal. Now we just realize all the thingy we used at Gunting Langanan, are man carry. 2pm, going back to Kota Kinabalu. Going back. SLEEP!
wa....this uncle so strong wo...if me..oh no.........can't can't

The next day woke up, I can’t move my body. BODY PAIN~~!!!

Be selfish or scarify

2009-03-14T10:18:00.000+08:00

These are the words that people that still stay on the earth thinking of. Day by day, human beings have becoming much more selfish if comparing to previous years. They rather scarify others just to safe one piece of his/her hair. Previously, there was a case where a guy loses his life when he was trying to save his friend’s life that needed to be sent to hospital immediately. However, the guy met some minor accident. Nobody knows that, the small accident will took the guy’s life away. When the guy still in critical condition due to the internal injury, his friend also being sent to the same hospital. both of them in critical condition. After a day suffering of losing too much blood, finally, the guy leaves everyone he love and went to a far far place. Most of people blame mostly on the girl. Saying she was the one causing one good guy disappear from the world. But no one know, actually the girl's situation also in a very serious stage. The guy didn’t think too much but what he wants is he has to save the girl.

After the tragic incident happen, a lot of idiotic rumour were spread...saying that: “before you want to help somebody, please think of your family, think of your love one”. WOW… I really don’t know who is the one that born without humanistic knowledge. If pandai ar…tell ur parents la…no need give you money no need give u food no need lend u house to sleep la…they also scarify their life for you ma~~ Common…. Helping someone and even sometimes will scarify our self, but it doesn’t mean you are stupid. You are making yourself a hero. Yes…hero is stupid, but at least a hero usually scarifies with all of pride and gets all respects. Even I knew, pride and respect can’t feed us but at least we won’t be the one that selling fish always. Remember..how we treat people, we will get it back one day…we will have to buy a lot a lot of fish from others….not just our self, it will affected our family too.

My dream ar~~

2009-03-13T11:54:00.000+08:00

Ever heard of a website?? www.islandreefjob.com? Wow…my dream is all inside there. I am so so so eager to take part. Unfortunately, I am not qualified for fulfill the term and conditions. Since i was in teenage age, I would like to try something adventures. Finally I have realized what I really want and what I really like. I love underwater world!! I always find the opportunity to get to the underwater world. Snorkeling, swimming and the thing I want the most is diving. However, after 4 years, I still unable to get a real diving license. sad sad...

no matter where this place is..but i still wanna goo~~~

One day when I was on plane, I saw in a magazine the best job in the world. Yes that is the real best job in the world. That is being the caretakers in the island of the GREAT BARRIER REEF. Wow…. I really want to try but I have limited experience, It is rarely have such a gold opportunity. It is so hard for me to persuade myself to forget the offer. I think I really have to scarify something before I can get to my dream.

I wanna swim with turtle, I wanna touch all my family (coral…hahahaha), I wanna swim with dolphin, I wanna swim beside whale and of course I wanna swim with my future boyfriend (human) in the sea…yea… that’s my dream..Not complicated… very simple, just rely on my opportunities and my braveness. Well…when the time is my dream will comes true, I don’t know. But I will still run run to chase chase my dream!!! Underwater world I am coming~~~~~~~~~~muahahaha

wa.....i wanna hug it~~

hahaha....touch touch touch

i really wanna jump into the sea hahaha so clear!!!

Learning something really hard

2009-03-13T03:46:00.000+08:00

Wa~~~ today is my…er….second time play guitar..but this time was a guy that I knew from a singing website taught me. Yea…he really really try his best to teach me..but the problem is…MY FINGER TOO SHORT~~~ argh~~ why why~~ this make me so hard to change the chord!! I can’t forget the G chord..I really can’t put my last three fingers on the strings. But I tell myself!! I will success…I just change to use other longer finger lo…. dun use the tiniest one~~hahahaha me very pandai wo~~ so creative so inovatif and whatever tif~tif~tif~

Erm….i dunno how long I can tahan the pain on the tip of my left hand’s fingers….wa…i can see the lines appear on my finger tips… I think won’t become bruise gua…its ok….no pain no gain….

Erm!! Thanks my guitar laoshi!! The most entau, kindest and smartest laoshi in malaysia. Hahahaha( I help him do promotion ba…). One day I will play guitar and we PK hahahahaha<<>

Hey worlds!! Wait for me to sit on the stage and share beautiful songs with u all~~ wakakakaka