we still bonded...but....

u ask me..."did i treat u badly?"
erm.....this is hard for me to answer....
u treat me not bad...
good.....but the 'good' is not yet achieved my requirement.
you realize that u r in the border of fail or pass...
yes....for me...we now....nothing more than just like a best friend...
we do talked on phone everyday....can say it is a routine of our life now....honestly i used to it.
but did we ever do something surprise or out of expectation to each other before???
do i ever did that?? yes or no...that depends on what you think..i don't know....you have the answer...
what do you ever did?? ok...for me...the only the real only one...you came to a far far place to pick me...as our first trip too....that the only things that make me change the perception to you...i really appreciate the moment...my sweetest memory with u....

my answer to u...

i told u..u just treat me so so.....how u treat me do change since the time we start...and the slight improvement do make me really take u importantly....but once u r sure i am in u...you like loosing the rope...

yes..i am greedy...i am selfish...i need surprise...i need something unexpected from u....but you like being real normal....10 days equal to one day....nothing different....i can felt bored...my feeling will fade off......

you answer me..."i am like that...i can never treat u better a day than a day... then finally....at the older day...when i can't treat u better... it will be worst....so..i will not treat u nicely at first...then i will slowly improve day by day...so u will appreciate me~~"

but dear...do u ever think that....we still new in our relationship...this is the chance we gotta gain merit from each other...we must do something that really meaningful.... unforgettable..sacrifice....it all about timing.....if the timing pass....no matter what u try to do later...it will be nothing  more than useless...and meaningless....when time goes by...it will bring along our feeling away....we still not really strengthen our relationship....but seems...everything going to be worst......this is the third time i mention this seriously to u...everytime...end up with....u told me...u headache....u need to rest earlier......

i know it is hurt to tell u, i be with u this time but it doesn't mean that i will be with u in the forever to the future...because now i still evaluating u....u can do that to me as well....now i am sure...i just can be your girlfriend but being a part of your life in future...still impossible....you still not the one...

and this time u add up one more phrase...

"alright then...i am not your one......then u just go to find another guy better than me..."