this song "可惜不是你" is for us?

i just realize, now i treat my blog as my diary...
luckily..no one come to view...
most of people has forgotten this blog...
is good thing indeed..

i don't know what to write here, but...while listen to the song..
"可惜不是你"
makes me think, is this song is for either one of us?
last time i never worry...i never care, even i think of nothing is permanent ..
now...i can feel the pain in my heart if the day comes...
that night, u told me something happen to u..
at that moment, i really shock, is that real?
tears that fill up the spaces in my eyes make me realize how important u r to me...

thinking back to the moment  we had together...
almost one year... 
u become apart of my life...
u fill up almost all my night time before i sleep..
although we are far apart, but u always try to pull our relationship closer
every time i was unhappy, u'll comfort me,
every time i was angry, u'll let me complaint and even scold
every time i was bored, u'll accompany throughout the time
i don't realize since when u slowly walk into my world and even open the door to the prohibited room...

the time we being with each other really short,
that was the thing that i really regret of,
why not we spend more time together?
wait for the time to meet u dear....

i don't know what can i do to reduce your pain...
what can i do is...be with u...
appreciate all the time with u..
as i promise....i will not make u unhappy again...

no matter what, thanks for bringing happiness to my life,
thanks for let me know how to appreciate someone,
thanks for let me know what is the things that called love....
and..thanks for entering my world....

u just eveready..not yet energizer

u always ask...did u treat me nicely?
yes...orally...u treat me super duper nice....
u always told me....u will do this to me u will do that to me, we will go here, we will go there...
but...will all that really happen??
we don't know.....
but so far, what i knew.....today u mention, tomorrow,u totally forget about it...
i always try to hint u...
don't u ever promise anything that u can never do....
pls don't ....i don't want to have a bad impression to u...
it is hard form me to pretend to be happy because u tell me something that purposely to make me happy.....just purposely make me happy....and wealways know..it will never happen

today i told u.....we had gap a long time we didn't met.
u say yes...u miss me, u want to see me, u need me, 
but yet,
u never try to find a chance for us to met.
u started calculate to me...u said...
"don't worry...u will come back at the end of october,
"we will meet in KL in december,"
then u said again "u will come to hometown again in january.."
and..."u will back again in april..."
do u ever realize....u just wait me to go back.....
do u ever think of....
how if one day, i am not going back....how do me meet?
i really disappointed when i realize this....
i always thought u treat me importantly....
u said u miss me, u want to see me that is real...
but i am wrong..
that is not the thing that u want desperately.
because..i believe...human will put effort to get what they really want..
but what i can see from u...u....never....never.....


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